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Sunday, June 15, 2014 Lost
Hello my dear blog, it's been awhile since I've posted things here. I'm not sure if I should continue with this blog, or re-make a fresh one. Well, for the sake of ease, I'mma just continue with this for awhile. The date now is, 15th June, 2014. 2014, that is right. Half of 2014 is already gone, and we're moving towards the second half of 2014. Time flies really really fast doesn't it? Actually, there was a research study done pertaining to psychology, it says that, when a person grows older by the year, he would feel that time goes faster and faster. I've forgotten the reason, but yeah, I guess it is true. Aside from all this, I was actually, lost in my life. I didn't felt this before to be honest. Here's the list of things that made me lose myself:
"Aside from all this, I was actually, lost in my life. I didn't felt this before to be honest." 
Me during my last fight (November 2013) - My first round
Do you guys have any true passion in your life? Like you know, when you are doing something, no matter how hard it is, you just kept going, because you love it.
I do, and it is, the sport of fighting. Some of you may think its such a gruesome sport, two man in a ring, hitting each other and wanting to knock the fuck out of each other. To a certain extent... yes. That's the purpose. But no, there's a very deep spiritual feeling when two man is fighting in a cage/ring. Both men, have trained hard, put in hours of effort to endure the grueling training, they have to endure both physical and mental pain. They have trained their body to endure pain, to be cool, calm and collected under the pressure, and they have trained their mind spiritually to be prepared for any unexpected circumstances. 
This is me during my last fight (November 2013) - This is before the fight began, I'm prepared to take any punishment. "Come at me!" that was my thoughts.
It really is hard to explain in words, you have to be a fighter yourself to understand what I'm really talking about. To put it simply, fighting, is the same as living your life. Ups and downs, heartbreaks, successes, failures and such. It is the same thing :) "It really is hard to explain in words, you have to be a fighter yourself to understand what I'm really talking about." ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ So, after 4 months of not training and competing, I have decided on something. I want to go back training, fighting and doing things that I love . Although I would probably be more busy than ever, I would probably be candidly happy again, just like I was during 2012-2013. One of my close friend said to me this , "You've lost your sparks in your eyes. What happened?" Those words really pierced my heart, it really hit me. 
Before the fight - I can see the fire in my eyes.
I went home, thinking about it for quite awhile. I was thinking, "she was right, I have lost a part of myself". So I went on to reflect on what is missing, and boom. I figured it out.
What was missing, was that I wasn't doing the things I love and want, in my life. I have done that for so many years, and I didn't realized that I forgotten it. So here's a list of what I wanna do, right now, and in the future.
"What was missing, was that I wasn't doing the things I love and want, in my life"
There is, this girl that I am in love with. I'll be honest, she's quite a hard one, stubborn, strong, independent, and sometimes just cold.
But whenever she's happy, my whole world turns happy. It makes me smile, makes me want to hug her and absorb all that energy. Especially when we are playing games together (She's fking good in games, she's like a gamer guy, and im a noob gamergurl) The both of us, we aren't exactly boyfriend-girlfriend, but we both have showed each other our 'naked' self, telling each other our past, trying to understand each other. With that, well... she has a lot of flaws. But the thing is, I do accept her flaws, I'm trying my very best to understand her, and I want to love the way she is. I just hope she would do the same for me (and I know it's gonna be difficult), and hopefully, one day, we would truly be together :). For now, I would do the things I would love to do, love myself more, so that I could learn to love others again, especially you.
Well, that was a lengthy post.
To wrap this up, tomorrow onwards, I would start doing the things I love again. And I am pretty darn sure that I would be truly myself again, that cheerful, passionate guy, with a burning fire and sparks in his eyes.  Cheers to life, Jake I killed a Hollow at 1:07 PM Monday, December 31, 2012
*Stretch* It's been awhile since I've posted something in this blog. Like what I've mentioned in my previous posts , I'd only post something if there's something major that happened. Well , I promised someone that I'll post something in my blog, so before the year ends, I better start now. Well well... where should we start. Hmm, the year 2012, it was really a rocky road. Its like taking a rollercoaster, and suddenly to the ferris wheel, and then suddenly you're bungee jumping, and suddenly you're on top of the eiffel tower, looking across the horizon. That's one way to put it. Ah, I think I know what to write , I'll do a summary of 2012 as a whole. Beginning of 2012, I had a crush on someone, she was, somewhat my dream girl. Im not saying she's perfect, but she's like imperfectly perfect, y'know. Also, Its where I graduated from ITE College, and moved on to take my Diploma in Environmental Science. It was a good start, everything seems blissful. I was training hard for competitions, my progress in GE was good, and the faction I led was awesome. Also... i started falling in love on my crush. Mid-2012 Man, I have things to do, Ill put a pause on the blog for awhile. I killed a Hollow at 10:46 AM Monday, May 16, 2011 Life Changing Moments
====================================================================== CHANGE ====================================================================== Monday, 16 May 2011  Yo! Today I'll write something that might change how i live my life in the near future. Keyword is (MIGHT) As usual, I'll write what I did for today first . ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So today school started at 9 and end at 1, LOL!
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------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Ch..ch..CHANGE! I won't go into details... but me and my mum might need to move out to another apartment and live. I won't say much. You guys have to guess yourself why we need to move :) . Basically... every family has their own problems or success. Each family has this..erm, like their own culture and believes or something like that. To be honest, I'm a quiet person at home. Dont' really talk much to my parents. But with my friends my mouth becomes 7-11 already. I think some of you guys also same as me right? IF me and my mum really gonna move out, my lifestyle gonna change alot. I need to work, to support myself and boxing. Means lesser time with friends and my gf, dammmmmmnnnn. I still have that fighting spirit to dream to become the champion, but first I need to earn money or I can't live properly. Damn Singapore, why does our sports scene still so noob. Nabei. I think my strength comes from my weakness. That's why I wanna be a champion so bad, to prove to people, to my dad and most importantly myself. Last time as a kid I was a fucking devil. Really. I'll talk more about it tmr or something. Also I was bullied when i was in Primary 5-6 , and a lil in Sec 1. Yeah.. Sucks to be bullied. I have the power to bully, but I don't like it cause i know being bullied is really sucky. I wanna bully bullies instead! BULLYYYY BEATDOWN!!!! Damnnnn. Lastly, i reallly love my GF! She can be mature, and also childish at the same time, which i like very much. I like mature women, but i also love it more when they can be childish , coz I am like that too! :P . Too bad we are seperated by politics, But no worries, I'll visit her again this coming June... hehehehehhehehehe. K, that's all I have in my mind for today. Today I'll just play game, dowan study. P.S : Thanks for the peeps who reads my blog ! Really appreaciate it. Leave a message if you do visit and read! Thanks :) - Jakey I killed a Hollow at 8:14 PM Saturday, May 14, 2011 IKUZO!
Friday, May 13 2011 ====================================================================== Ikuzo ===============================================================  Yo! Hmm.. Many weird things happened/ I saw on this Friday the 13th. So let's start with what I did for today.
1. So start the day as usual, wake up, shower, go to school and stuff. Nothing much in particular happened 2. So after the lesson ends, me and Russell heads towards Clementi MRT to meet with Hycurl to start on our project for Sports Administration and Marketing. Man, I don't really like this module. Really Sucks to me!!! But bo pian... must do if not no 3.5 GPA . So when we reach the facility, we head towards the gym and start interviewing the Gym Manager/Trainer on some questions related to our project. Then we asked whether we could take some photos of the facilities. Then the bad news came. He say no, we have to go through "Red Tape" (Protocols involving paperwork) and get authorized by the Singapore Sports Council HQ. Fuck!!!! We wasted our time man, seriously. Actually all of us would be going to the gym, but Hycurl didnt bring his shoes, so end up Russell went to the Gym , while me and Hycurl went Black Ops at a LAN shop nearby. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2. So me and Hycurl head towards the LAN shop. It was situated in an abandon school if I'm not wrong. They converted it into shop houses and stuff, or office rental space. The place seems scary at night... Then we imagine got zombies and stuff, and when we open one of the door, one zombie will come out and kill us. Hahahha crap only la. So after we walk up, down, left, right. We finally found the LAN shop and played Black Ops / BlackShot. First few maps of Black OpS was okok, since we played with bots. Hycurl was dominating the frag as he played it more, and It was my first time playing it. But still have fun la. The fun part comes when Russell came too! We played Free-For-All at NUKETOWN map. HAHAHAHHAAHA. Fucking epic. Hycurl, as usual was dominating the frag, I was last frag. But then when I gotten used to the game, i started getting Kill Streaks and stuff. So my frag fluctuated when I used Cobra-Copter and Napalm Airstrike (Burns Enemies) together at once, Hahahahahahahhaha. Lots of ppl died. So my frag was at 2nd place all the way. Hycurl kept melee-ing me from the back, But I also placed claymore area around me, so you know la, when he want to melee me he goes BOOM!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA. So after all that, all of us head home. AND OH! MY PHONE DROPPED FKFKFKFKFKFK!!! NOW GOT SCRATCHES T_T (HTC Mozart) . ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So on a serious note... Was thinking of my honey everytime I go home. Kinda missed her as we didnt talk much for this week. Coz she was working till late and me with my projects. But I'll meet her again sometime in June :) . I realized, my physical ability is quite limited. I'm short, and I'm fatter then when I was i my Full Prime during Sec 4- sec 5. Dammmmm. I got no idea why i got fatter. Fk man. As for me, the road to the Champion's path is wayyy more difficult then I used to think. First step , is for me to lose weight. Gain back 2kg after i lost the 6kg . My main focus is to lose weight first then. I'm still looking for a place to train full-time Boxing. Either I'll go to Fight G or Kadir Boxing. Hmm... money really makes the world go round. I'm running out of money, need to ask from my mum again... But no worries mum, I'm working in IT.Fair, Risk Assesment for SSC, and also the F1 race. Hope I get my bursary/scholarship too... I guess that's all for today. Oh, I really appreciate to those who read my blog, a shoutout to Anu, Henry, KorrupT, Bronson and Ben whom I know have read so far. Write me a shoutout if you do visit ! :) ===================================================================== END - When I read this blog in 10 years time, I'll read as a world champion... =============================================================== I killed a Hollow at 8:28 AM Thursday, May 12, 2011 Hajime!
====================================================================== Slightly Sick ======================================================================  Wednesday , 11 May 2011 Hey yo! Just got back from Judo training and dinner with my judo mates too!
Okay, so that's what went on today, nothing much but I think I had fun with my friends. Hmm...Time sure does fly fast. Im a Year 2 Student now, and Its already May, wtf? Also I made lots of new friends in my ITE life, of course I would rather go Poly, but I wouldnt get to meet my new friends if I didnt go ITE :P Also a shoutout to Syafiq " The Slasher" , he's a Muay Thai exponent with lots of potential. He won the Asian Junior World Champion sometime last year. Real respect for you bro, Im hoping I'll achieve something like this soon enough. So its a long way to go till that championship dream, hope my fighting spirit remains the same. Alright, I'll end my post here, goodnight guys. Oh fuck, its 12.30 am already. ==================================================================== END ==================================================================== I killed a Hollow at 12:11 AM |
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